Enchantment

Two hearts enchanting one another...
two souls bound to each other... 

They finally found each other after a long time of waiting and suffering...

Together they lived... inseparable no matter how hard life tried, they always grew stronger... 

They lived by the sea... where they always wanted...

He was a one of a kind... a marvelous sailor, a perfect fisher man... 

When he was wandering and searching for her.. He crossed many, many seas... until he finally found her, and settled to be only a fisher man, bound by her heart... believing this was worth every bit of sleepless nights he had to pass to find her.. 

Along the day he fished and she was with him.... 

And along the night they would stay by the fire...

She holding him between her arms... singing only to him.. Till he surrenders to beautiful sleep...

One day, he woke up finding himself in great pain... 

He knew what was with him, he knew the cure was so away... and that it was a long journey away from home... 

He hid it from her... smiling at her...  trying to endure the pain as each day passed...

But it wasn't merely working ... the pain grew larger... And he was no longer able to hide it from her...

She could sense that something was troubling him... she could see it in broken soul... Despite of his smiling eyes and lips... 

Whenever the night comes... she could feel that his mind was lost with the sea... she would hold him between her arms... trying to guide his lost mind home... 

Their souls were bound so close that she felt the pain and knew what he had to do to lose it...

She knew he had to go... away in the sea... to find the cure and finally rest...

She started preparing his boat… As she knew he had to go, but he wouldn't do it unless she asks him to...

As painful as it was, she devoted herself to prepare his boat so well he wouldn't need anything on his travel... so that he would return safe home..

The day he was leaving was so dark that she felt that the sun never came up... he promised he would come back as there were no home but her heart to him.. And she promised she will always keep a lit candle at night by the window so that he could see it, and that she will sing every night by the sea so that her voice would guide him home...

In spite of the pain he was in, he left with a smile on his lips and tears of love in his eyes... 

She stood by the sea till the boat was no longer there.. 

By day she fished as they did together, by night she would light a candle and sit by the sea to singing hoping he would hear her….

Years passed, her heart still burning by his fire ... And yet she sings... never losing hope he would return home...  

Beautiful death

Life... 

However bad it is.. Or good it is...
Is a mortal state... 
No matter how hard people wanna live.. They eventually will die..
I see no difference..

It's like... Being in opened water.. You swim perfectly...
And you swim and swim..
But there is no land.. You can see none...
So what you say in your mind.. Is no.... I ain't gonna give up.. I am gonna fight.. I am gonna reach the land.. I am gonna be safe!

And then you swim and swim again...
But still there is no land..

Your arms are weakened.. You can't feel your legs
Hungry, thirsty... With all the water and fish surrounding you...
Your vision weakened..

your mind just fixing on one thing.. Just one thing...
Is there is even anything on the other side?
Or am I only dreaming of something... That never really existed?
How did I end up here?

Then..... There is a choice... A second one...
Its either.. You go on and swim or you just let go and let the water take you
So you decide to give it another go, and swim...

You keep on swimming till you can't feel any of your limps... The water gets heavier by each second....and yet.. There is no land..

So.. Smiling and knowing... That this is the end... You just stop fighting .... Take a deep breath.. And stop moving... and surrender to the beautiful death :)

Death

Losing people to death...
Our loved ones...
I have been there.. I lost dear,,, dear people to death..

I tried alot convincing myself and thinking of it as if the people we lose, just go into another phase of life ,,

But after all, they are people, we no longer see except in our dreams..
We don't talk to them,, when we are in deep situations we don't find them hugging us, telling us it will be okay.

I was really lost between thoughts, until I found out that,, our beloved dead's existance, is defined by how we see that specific existance...

If I want a dear gone person to still exist in my life, I will think of this person in a way that will enable me to see him in my head.. Talk to him in my dreams... Share my best and worst moments with him..

People's souls are always alive... It just transfers from a state to another, from phase to phase..
We only need to understand that, not in every phase we will get the same as we usually get, when they are physically here..
We need to know, that somewhere, their souls are looking down upon us,, looking after and protecting us...

And some time after,, may be soon,, may be a little bit later, we will join our loved ones in their earlier started life..

Changing

Shattered.. Smashed..
Squeezed and the world is wide..
Bleeding.. With no feeling..
Without a reason, without a why..
Is this me?
Is this real?
Why can't I be free?
What's holding my feet?!
Changing.. Searching
For the inspiration in the world
Touching.. Experiencing
And everything is changed
Smiling and believing
Knowing the whole world will be mine
It's how I choose to live
I am only here to have fun
So come along with me
and we shall be free
Come along with me
Coz there is no time to waste..

Into the shades

Walking deeper into the shades,,,
With no lights to head to,,,
Coldness everywhere...
And no one to turn to,,,
Wondering, calling
Crying, falling,,,
Will this shit end?
No matter how she tries
Nothing really works
She slowly suffocates
And from her eyes, life fades
Turning deeper into the shades..
With no one to notice
And no one to care..
She takes more steps into despair
Walking deeper into the shades...

Nostalgia

You can be missing someone who left this world and went on to the other world that is waiting for us all, or missing people who left your life. Or you may be just temporarily missing someone who you did not see for long.

Friends, family, and loved ones.

But one thing is for sure, missing can be the most deadly feeling anyone can ever feel… When you miss someone, it is like your inner self is being ripped apart, feels like a piece of you lost, and you don’t know where to find it. 

Your chest aches. 

It could make you up all night, not able to think about anything else but the special someone you long for. You no longer have the desire to have fun. Indifference could be the main theme of your life. Food does not matter, clothes don’t matter, nothing really matters up till you find that person you long for.

You take out the pictures they are in. Listen to the music they used to love. You might even think that they are listening to it right here with you.  You can play some music yourself for them, or sing their favourite song hoping they would hear it. You can visit the places you used to head for with them, or visit them where their bodies lay comfortably.

Nostalgia directs us to dreaming, or even daydreaming at times. It is the only thing left to do to ease the pain. So you start building your own fantasies and stories about yourself and the other person you miss. Fantasies where you can see, hear and touch that person, where you can be happy, where there is no living and no dead,, Where the pain no longer is there. There come times, when you don’t want to wake up just to be with your loved ones a little bit more. Dreams become your favorite part of the day…

Nothing and no one can make you stop missing someone you do miss. Just hope to see them again, in this life, or the next. Try to live good for they would want you to. 

Face it with a smile

I see people everyday fighting over things they don’t even have…
crying over stuff they would never get back,,, looking back as if there is no future… worrying about things we can’t handle on our own.. Things we can’t control.
People dying, with cries and screams …
Why are we doing this?! I mean … a person takes a second to die… leaving everything he cares about behind… going to another phase of life, that might be better than what he already has here in this world…
May be because we don’t know the future is why we are that scared of it?!
May be because we don’t know what’s in the afterlife is why people cry or even scream, when they know they are going to die…
after all… what can we do about it?
Crying… worrying… being afraid?
Will this help us at any point?
Nothing can be done to change what we don’t know… I believe a person can change his fate… but… up till then we shouldn’t worry…

Somewhere God is here to help us go through whatever…
pain will only come to you if you’re capable of handling it… This is how it works…
no one will face anything that he or she wouldn’t be able to handle…
so why worry or be scared?

Since I got to this point… nothing scares me… I am not sure if am going to be ready to what is going to happen… and I will be making it up if I say I do… but at least I know I will be able to handle it… I will do my best… and when I die… I will die with a smile on my face…

Lost Love

When no one thought he was getting married at all.. He didn't mind what people said… 

He never answered to that.. He just heard what people said… smiled and changed the subject… He actually had in mind a different thing, no one would even think of it... he was looking for her..... His lost love... he was staying at the place he thought she would be... searching... waiting... wondering where she could be...

Years passed, and he never lost hope.. Not even for a second..

He kept on looking for her for twenty years... Until he finally found her.. The love of his life… physically in front of him.. As he never lost her spiritually… her soul always was with his…

At that moment.. He looked at her and told her.. Am never gonna lose you again... we need to be together...

She smiled...

All her eyes could tell.. is that she misses him and that she is all his... and only his....He couldn't still believe that after all these years she is with him...

Now when she is in his arms, he looks at the sky... and smiles...

Actions

In our time.. There are some people who are carved within our hearts or our minds…

Those people might be actors,, singers,, people we know personally by heart… or only met them once in our lives…

The one thing common between all those people, is that their actions led us to get so attached to them… 

These actions may have been direct or indirect to us.. might have nothing to do with us.. but anyway it affected us, one way or another. 

For this we should be thankful.. for if it was a good, pure action, a piece of music… a great role in a movie.. a father who loves his children, a mother who is devoted for her son.. a young man helping an old woman with something.. it might be even a little girl feeding a poor cat on the side of a street.

However small of insignificant the act was.. it made us feel that there is still someone who cares in the world… That we are not alone….

And even if it was a bad or evil action…. Well… it must have taught us something…
so we are the winners anyway… and for that we should be thankful…