الخازوق

الخوازيق..

الخوازيق اللي في حياتنا متعددة.. و مختلفة تمام الإختلاف فى الأحجام والأشكال..

ومتعددة في الوقت ذاته من اتجاه الخازوق اللي جي عليك....

تبقى قاعد في حالك كده.. كافي خيرك شرك..

وهوب تلاقي نفسك لبست يا حبت عيني في خازوق...

خازوق يجي في الشغل...

خازوق من حد بتحبه... 

سواء كان بقى صديق أو حبيب... أو أي حد بتحبه وخلاص..

تتناسب بقى شدة تأثير الخازوق طردياً مع معزِّة مُوجِه الخازوق..

يعني مثلاً لو حد معاك في الشغل هو اللي لبسك في الخازوق.. مش هيبقى تأثيره زي لو صديق العمر هو اللي عمل كده..

لأن ببساطة في الحالة الأولى، هيبقى الخازوق.. مجرد خازوق ،بيوجع بس برضه مجرد خازوق...

لكن في الحالة الثانية هتكون جريمة عظمى لا تُغتفر.

الحاجة الأوحش والمشتركة بين كل الخوازيق، إنها بتبقى غير متوقعة..

طبيعي... ما هو خازوق!!

الصدمة بتبقى في بعض الأحيان غير مصدقة..

إللي هو إزاي بعد كل ده والعشرة ... تلبس في خازوق شيك زي ده؟؟؟

وهنا تأتي المقولة الشهيرة بتاعة.. إعرف صاحبك وعلم عليه.. 
والمقولة الأكثر شهرة دلوقتي.. مافيش صاحب، يتصاحب...

لأن اللي لبسك الخازوق مرة... مش هيفكر ولا هيتردد إنه يلبسهولك ثاني وثالث...

إزي الصحة؟؟؟

يا رب دايماً كويسين.

Lose Yourself

Do it for someone who cares for you deeply..
Who would stay awake at night watching you sleep..
Do it for someone who genuinely loves you...
Sees you the way you are..

Do it for someone who dreams of you..
Who wants to spend an eternity with you..
Who cherishes your well being everyday..
Who adores your every single flaw, before your good deeds...

Do it for someone that without you,,, the world will mean nothing...
Who thinks of you as the best thing that ever happened..
Who dreams of your babies together...
Who fills the missing parts of your heart and soul..

Do it for someone who never gets sick of watching you smile...
Who never gets tired of you...
Who would do his best to keep you happy..
Who completes you...

Do it for someone who wouldn't give up on you...
Who thinks that you are going to work on and mend everything.. Together...
Who would always keep the promises....

Do it for someone whose life is yours and your life his..
Who would always keep you in his hug..
Protected and safe..
Like nothing in the world can hurt or affect you...

Do it for the someone you think of whenever something goes wrong..
And run towards his embrace if you are scared..
Who makes the world's obstacles easy..

Do it... Lose yourself into someone who is passionate about you...

The beacon of light

I was listening the other day to a piece of music that reminded me so much of someone...
The music was so strongly composed...
Moving forward, and rich...
Yet at some point, it has a touch of emotion and sadness..

I don't know...
This is how I felt it was...

This piece of music made me feel like I want to keep this person all the time cherished and loved.. For the rest of my life...

After all, I know what this person had to endure for me..
What they managed to overcome to become what they are..
What they had to forgive of my own personal mistakes, that affected them personally, directly or indirectly...

Regardless to all the difficulties they had to face in the world....
They still smile!

How can a person carry the whole weight of the world on his own shoulders and still have the capability of smiling??!!
Not just smiling, it is not... But actually the ability to transfer and infect others with the same exact smile and what's more.. HOPE...

Strong.. Like a mountain...
Inspiring...
Hope giver...
Supporter..
Respectful...
Caring...
And above all, happiness and comfort infectious.

If you ever had this person in your life (few or just one), never let go of them.. For they are the beacon of light to everyone around them...

I am just lucky and blessed to have  this amazing bright spot in my life...


P.S.  Here is the piece of music I mentioned above, I hope you enjoy it as much as I do.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z01N1V4quTw&feature=youtu.be

The Paper Cutter

I held out my hand today 

And with the other hand I held a paper cutter.. 

I stared for more than five minutes at both..

I started pressing on my veins with the paper cutter... 

Made a small cut...

There is nothing in life that is so urging to continue breathing.

Colorless,,, tasteless world.

Nothing is tempting me to stay...

The purpose of life?

Thought a lot about it, still thinking though

I am trying hard to get to a compelling reason to be here... Breathing...

Am I considered really alive if I breathe but not mentally here?
If my heart is pounding but my soul is elsewhere?
If I do not have any more dreams?
If everything smells and tastes the same?
If it is always night?

I really don't know...

On the other hand, if I let the paper cutter do the work I want it to do...
What will happen on the other side...
What happens if I die?
Another phase of endless nights, may be?
Eternal silence and emptiness.
Hell?

Figured out that with the paper cutter is somehow like without it.
Limbo... Emptiness...
It is only a matter of phases.
This phase is the living world, the next one, who knows?

So I decided to put the paper cutter down
and face this world, for now... 

Locked

When the eyes dry...

No more tears to fall.. 

But the heart is still aching... 

No more tears to shed... 

And looking back is not an option anymore... 

It hurts... 

Worst part is,
You never saw it coming.. 

You trusted.. 

You dreamed.. 

You believed.. 

You hoped.. 

You fell in love... 

Now struggling is all you know.. 

Inside your head and out.. 

Why?! 

You don't know.. 

Your heart's burning.. 

Torn apart every night... 

Shredded.. 

Yes.. 

But what can you do?

You have been a fool..
And you know.. 

Bury your pain deep inside your aching heart.. 

And wait for what the days hide..

Nothing is for free

When I first thought about it... 

I thought no... There must be something for free... 

Like mother's love for example. However, when I really drowned into thinking about that, I really found out that nothing is for free....

You see, everything you get, you pay for.

Either you pay for it materialistically or spiritually… 

In order to get anything, you will have to pay something in return... 

You pay money for the things you need to buy... 

You pay time, energy, and social life at work, to get money, career and to fulfill your dreams…

You pay your free will to choose items around the house, as a price for having someone to share this house with... 

Okay, so everything has a price... Super!

Friends and loved ones are not like that, right??

They are there whenever you need them...

In every corner of your life they will be there, trying to cheer you up in your downs and cheer long your side when you are happy... 

As much as I love this idea and truly want to believe it is true... It is not... 

Everyone wants something in return… Including you... 

Your friends and loved ones are there for you, because someday you were by their side when they needed you, or they know they can count on you if anything happens... 

So it is not really something materialistic that you can hold with your own hands... They want the spiritual income that would be given to them.

That does not make anyone evil, it is just the way things go, even if you deny it... 

Try for example to ignore calls from your friends, don't reply, don't text back, bail every time they hang out and see how they will react to this...

They will be mad... Because they expect that their friend will be there.. to hang out, talk or whatever.

Is this care?

Yes it is a kind of care.. But also, need for payback... (in a way or another).

You do this as well by the way, you are not an angel, you are a human being... 

It is all about the human relationships, give-take relations... 

Every relation, every kind and everything.

I am not sure why I am writing this now, and I don't know what I wrote but this is a topic has been in my head for a couple of days now....

Nothing is for free.

Cracked