Your Mirror 2

I'm the one from the dark side,,

of my mind

The incarnated desire

The one I wanted to be

And always feared to be

I'm the monster...

Returning to you

Your mirror

I am me,
I am you
I am the silenced cry,
The unspoken words,
I am your lust,
The incarnated desire,
I am your need,
I am your mirror...

الخازوق

الخوازيق..

الخوازيق اللي في حياتنا متعددة.. و مختلفة تمام الإختلاف فى الأحجام والأشكال..

ومتعددة في الوقت ذاته من اتجاه الخازوق اللي جي عليك....

تبقى قاعد في حالك كده.. كافي خيرك شرك..

وهوب تلاقي نفسك لبست يا حبت عيني في خازوق...

خازوق يجي في الشغل...

خازوق من حد بتحبه... 

سواء كان بقى صديق أو حبيب... أو أي حد بتحبه وخلاص..

تتناسب بقى شدة تأثير الخازوق طردياً مع معزِّة مُوجِه الخازوق..

يعني مثلاً لو حد معاك في الشغل هو اللي لبسك في الخازوق.. مش هيبقى تأثيره زي لو صديق العمر هو اللي عمل كده..

لأن ببساطة في الحالة الأولى، هيبقى الخازوق.. مجرد خازوق ،بيوجع بس برضه مجرد خازوق...

لكن في الحالة الثانية هتكون جريمة عظمى لا تُغتفر.

الحاجة الأوحش والمشتركة بين كل الخوازيق، إنها بتبقى غير متوقعة..

طبيعي... ما هو خازوق!!

الصدمة بتبقى في بعض الأحيان غير مصدقة..

إللي هو إزاي بعد كل ده والعشرة ... تلبس في خازوق شيك زي ده؟؟؟

وهنا تأتي المقولة الشهيرة بتاعة.. إعرف صاحبك وعلم عليه.. 
والمقولة الأكثر شهرة دلوقتي.. مافيش صاحب، يتصاحب...

لأن اللي لبسك الخازوق مرة... مش هيفكر ولا هيتردد إنه يلبسهولك ثاني وثالث...

إزي الصحة؟؟؟

يا رب دايماً كويسين.

Lose Yourself

Do it for someone who cares for you deeply..
Who would stay awake at night watching you sleep..
Do it for someone who genuinely loves you...
Sees you the way you are..

Do it for someone who dreams of you..
Who wants to spend an eternity with you..
Who cherishes your well being everyday..
Who adores your every single flaw, before your good deeds...

Do it for someone that without you,,, the world will mean nothing...
Who thinks of you as the best thing that ever happened..
Who dreams of your babies together...
Who fills the missing parts of your heart and soul..

Do it for someone who never gets sick of watching you smile...
Who never gets tired of you...
Who would do his best to keep you happy..
Who completes you...

Do it for someone who wouldn't give up on you...
Who thinks that you are going to work on and mend everything.. Together...
Who would always keep the promises....

Do it for someone whose life is yours and your life his..
Who would always keep you in his hug..
Protected and safe..
Like nothing in the world can hurt or affect you...

Do it for the someone you think of whenever something goes wrong..
And run towards his embrace if you are scared..
Who makes the world's obstacles easy..

Do it... Lose yourself into someone who is passionate about you...

The beacon of light

I was listening the other day to a piece of music that reminded me so much of someone...
The music was so strongly composed...
Moving forward, and rich...
Yet at some point, it has a touch of emotion and sadness..

I don't know...
This is how I felt it was...

This piece of music made me feel like I want to keep this person all the time cherished and loved.. For the rest of my life...

After all, I know what this person had to endure for me..
What they managed to overcome to become what they are..
What they had to forgive of my own personal mistakes, that affected them personally, directly or indirectly...

Regardless to all the difficulties they had to face in the world....
They still smile!

How can a person carry the whole weight of the world on his own shoulders and still have the capability of smiling??!!
Not just smiling, it is not... But actually the ability to transfer and infect others with the same exact smile and what's more.. HOPE...

Strong.. Like a mountain...
Inspiring...
Hope giver...
Supporter..
Respectful...
Caring...
And above all, happiness and comfort infectious.

If you ever had this person in your life (few or just one), never let go of them.. For they are the beacon of light to everyone around them...

I am just lucky and blessed to have  this amazing bright spot in my life...


P.S.  Here is the piece of music I mentioned above, I hope you enjoy it as much as I do.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z01N1V4quTw&feature=youtu.be

The Paper Cutter

I held out my hand today 

And with the other hand I held a paper cutter.. 

I stared for more than five minutes at both..

I started pressing on my veins with the paper cutter... 

Made a small cut...

There is nothing in life that is so urging to continue breathing.

Colorless,,, tasteless world.

Nothing is tempting me to stay...

The purpose of life?

Thought a lot about it, still thinking though

I am trying hard to get to a compelling reason to be here... Breathing...

Am I considered really alive if I breathe but not mentally here?
If my heart is pounding but my soul is elsewhere?
If I do not have any more dreams?
If everything smells and tastes the same?
If it is always night?

I really don't know...

On the other hand, if I let the paper cutter do the work I want it to do...
What will happen on the other side...
What happens if I die?
Another phase of endless nights, may be?
Eternal silence and emptiness.
Hell?

Figured out that with the paper cutter is somehow like without it.
Limbo... Emptiness...
It is only a matter of phases.
This phase is the living world, the next one, who knows?

So I decided to put the paper cutter down
and face this world, for now... 

Locked

When the eyes dry...

No more tears to fall.. 

But the heart is still aching... 

No more tears to shed... 

And looking back is not an option anymore... 

It hurts... 

Worst part is,
You never saw it coming.. 

You trusted.. 

You dreamed.. 

You believed.. 

You hoped.. 

You fell in love... 

Now struggling is all you know.. 

Inside your head and out.. 

Why?! 

You don't know.. 

Your heart's burning.. 

Torn apart every night... 

Shredded.. 

Yes.. 

But what can you do?

You have been a fool..
And you know.. 

Bury your pain deep inside your aching heart.. 

And wait for what the days hide..