Leaf blown in the wind

The moment when you wake up one day to realize,
you made all the wrong choices about your life.
when you suddenly feel the ground vanishing from under your feet,
and that no matter what you do,
you can never undo what you have done.

The choices you made,
The sacrifices you offered!
The effort and amount of energy you gifted...

Sorrow, and regret ...
for all the things you could have done..
for all the things you could have said ..
No matter what happens, you can not rewind time.

All the tears that have been shed,
The shattered heart...
all the nerves that have been burned,, and for what?
For the nonsense, for all to be wasted in vain.

You find yourself,
Ignored, not even missed,,,
No one acknowledges what you have done for them..
No one sees.
Even the closest... the bonded...
All in vain.

You are going down
deep down,
and you know quite well
that no one will catch you
before you hit the rock bottom..
and you can not help yourself,
because simply it does not matter anymore..

You feel like a leaf blown in the wind
and there is nothing you want to do about it..
Not because you can not do anything..
Because it does not matter anymore.